Beauty, of whatever kind, invariably excites the human soul to tears.

I haven't used this blog in over two years...

Normally I just blog on my myspace because if I want privacy that's what the "diary" option if for.

I would delete this if I could figure out how.

Who knows, maybe I'll use it again someday.

It feels like it almost isn't worth it. Just one more disappointment under my belt. All in all I guess it's my fault, which only makes it worse... That I screwed up an oppourtunity like that. There'll be a chance for us someday... Eventually.

All good things have to come to an end but it's nice if they'd start first.

Thinking is bad for you, so is love. You can't live without either and you can't really pick the lesser of two evils. I mean you can be lovesless but that leads to a bitter lonley life. Humans are heard animals, we don't like to be alone.. Wait sorry, confusing us with sheep again. Not thinking can end you up in some serious predicaments.

But what I really don't like is thinking about love. I don't want to end up in the same vicous circle. He's not even the same kind of person as the last one... But knowing me I'll find a way to fuck it up... Maybe I should meet him first... I'm just worried I'm going to get too caught up in this and it isn't going to get me anywhere.

Femanazis here I come.

Reading Nick's blog...got me thinking...made me sad.. If thinking makes me sad I don't think I should think, should I? I was gonna leave a comment but I figured I'd just better post... It hurts when someone has the ability to make your heart flutter like a bird trapped in a cage....But they look at your as just abother person. Internet love...that's like love at first sight. It doesn't happen... But what if you have phone conversations? What if the only thing seperating you is 706 miles? Meeting Nick isn't going to make me less confused.. Probably just confuse me more...because I'll spend how long he's here with him then he'll go back and things will never be the same. Just another confused idea about love...

I wish I could just come  up with some self degrading excuse...

Pretty spiffy...I think my last update was like a month ago... Oh yeah I'm cool. Happy Turkeyday everbody. Ew..there was pie crust on my sweater from the pie I made earlier... One of my wisdom teeth hurts and so does the throat... Went to Sara's for dinner, she made cheesecake. It was damn good, so was all of the other food. I'm riding in a parade tomarrow. Yeah...our groups gonna kick ass.. Hope Lory will be there, it was sounding like she wouldn't have a ride to town. Uhm...yeah...